cheerios~

congratulations to me!!!

yep.. my fone rang at 9am tis morning.. stephanie called to inform mi tt winston decided to employ me!!! haha.. i've finally gotten a job... tmr gonna go dere to sign the "appointment" thingy.. den starting work on wednesday... but i haven told him tt i'm taking leave on 18th June.. coz i'm leaving fer redang.. hope he doesn't mind.. haha.. oPps.. but even if he minds, i'm not giving up my trip to redang.. not over my dead body!!! *heesh*

hmmm.. am cooking chicken chop ltr fer mr piggy.. no one's coming home fer dinner tonite so it's candel-light dinner fer mi and my boy... cheerios!!! hehe.. dad's off to KL fer biz.. mum's dining out wif her frenz.. sis sticking to her bf... =)

hope my chicken chop taste nice ltr.. hehe.. tis is the second try... the first try was already considered good.. so i hope tis time rd, i'll b more "perfect"... :)

actually i'm quite nervous bout work.. i'm afraid tt i'll b slow at learning.. n tt my boss will b hard to handle.. although he's quite nice when interviewing me.. but u noe.. nv judge a book by its cover.. hehe.. anyways.. wish mi luck peeps!!!

specially to my dearest bong:

babe, i'm here and always be.. take up my tips in learning cooking.. it's realli a nice thing to do to keep ur mind off... okies? n juz ring mi up whenever u wan~ 24/7 available... rem our once-a-week date okies? *huggies*

it's over~

hmmm...

went fer 2 interviews today..

first one was at Gul St.. Jurong West area... tis comp is dealing wif electrical stuffs... the other comp is at Bukit Batok.. both of dem at industrial area.. so no cute guys fer my eyes.. haha.. tis comp at B.B is dealing wif dim sum~ *yum yum* the manager told mi they supply fer many 5* hotels like Ritz Carlton, Shangri-La.. etc.. so, perhaps if i get the job i'll haf free dim sum?!?! hahaha...

anyways.. the first one dun seem too keen on mi.. the boss seems like he wants someone wif experience.. he keep emphasizing tt i'm more suitable fer frontline work.. n keep askin why i dun wanna work fer my dad... but the second one seems quite okay to me.. the manager is kinda cute.. round round cute cute de.. haha..oh ya.. it's a family biz..

so wish mi luck in getting one of the jobs.. but anyhows, even if i dun get the jobs.. i'll juz haf to continue searching... =P

25th was "our" day... 1 yr 4 mth to b exact... hmm.. i'm realli glad we got so far... n i realli thx god fer tt... a r/s realli need alot of effort to b put in.. i gave in my all tis time round.. n i hope tis r/s will b a smooth sailing one.. i realli hope so... i'm trying so hard to curb my temper.. n dear, if u'll ever get a chance to read this.. i hope you can feel my changes.. *hugz*

haven met up wif the poly mates since sch ended.. missed dem so much.. wam pa tan.. whr u? reading my blog nw? wad happened to urs? can't seem to see nething dere... -__-

oh ya.. u mentioned a meet up rite? when ur're free? let's go out fer some drinks and fun ya? *missed ya*

an interview finally .. .

yes yes yes~

congratulate mi pple.. i've finally gotten an interview... =)

date's set at tmr.. in the afternoon.. lucky fer mi not in the morning.. else i wun b able to wake up... :P

oh ya.. did i mentioned tt SIM accepted my application? oh well.. i'll be starting sch nxt yr Aug... which means i'm gonna step into the working life right nw.. fer like a yr.. actually.. i'm not at all prepared fer this so called "working life"... but well.. all of us need to take tis first step no matter when, no matter hw..

i'm telling myself tt i need this fer my future.. to get myself "prepared" and more adaptable i guess... but i noe it'll b tough.. well... life isn't made to b easy in the first place...

read bong's blog.. am glad she's not taking it too hard... like we all noe.. pple come, pple go.. so, dun persist too much.. rites? no matter hw.. frenz will always b ard.. plus the fact tt ur're such a lovable girl.. u'll haf no lack of suitors and frenz accompanying u thru tis time of ur life... today's ur laz day of werk rite? enjoy ur hols while u still can... hehe..

and.. let's meet up more often ok? let's havoc havoc havoc!!! cheerios~

to ying: (if ur're reading this)

take a deep breath.. n dun force yourself... if its too hard... juz sit back, relax, and try again... all we can do is send our wishes and encouragement.. the rest juz depends on u.. n we all noe, tt u'll definitely make it.. alrite? *hugs and kisses*

tears dun matter anymore

no.. i'm not well..

i'm not feeling good.. AT ALL...

somehw.. i dun feel gd abt this

thou everything seems to b fine..

i noe it wouldn't be...

n seriously.. i realli miss u so much...

thou i noe nth seems to matter nw...

i'm sorrie... i realli am

i noe i brought this upon myself..

for tt... i apologize again...

i'm realli sorrie..

specially to -u-noe-who

hmmm... i dunno if u'll be reading this, n i dun wish to state who you are.. but well.. ur're someone so near yet so far, i guess... guess u noe tt i've been ignoring you lately.. i noe tis is not rite, nor is it the right way fer mi to treat u.. esp, someone so close... n be it someone i shd respect to.. perhaps i hadn't respect you before.. but ask urself if u deem the respect..

let mi tell u the reason behind this coldness you get from me.. ur're older than me.. n i believe i dun haf the right to tell u wad's right and wad's wrong and simply becoz u shd noe it better than me.. but obviously, you dun.. u do things tt u think its right but not noeing tt ur're hurting pple close to your heart.. so much money is spent on your studies and u simply dun give a fark abt it.. fer ur age.. i think u shd b able to noe wad's right n wad's not.. but u juz simply ignore the fact.. the fact tt there're not ard.. doesn't mean tt you can do wadeva u wan.. ur integrity lies in you... nth's wrong wif clubbing, having fun and hanging out wif your boyfren.. but u shd noe ur limits...

you shd noe tt u earn ur trust from pple.. if u do things tt misplaces their trusts, they will NEVER EVER put tt trust in you again.. perhaps tis entry a tad bit too serious.. and i might not be in the place to tell you all these.. i juz need you to noe tt wad's going on..

to change or not, it still lies in you.. remember.. they are not "pian xin"... they juz trust someone whom they think they can... but u break ur promise not more than once.. n u hurt them not more than once.. i noe tt "she" loves to nag at you, scold u etc.. but ask urself why is this so? hav u did anything tt proved tt u've grown up? u noe it better than anyone else.. dun think tt when u help others, means tt u've matured and can handle all other problems.. but the truth is.. u can't even settle your own problem.. n pls, face the truth and deal wif it...

i hope tis entry realli makes sense to you...

cookies deactivated!!!

MABEL GOH QING JIN

help help help!!!

i tried to allow cookies liow.. but still cannot use the tagboard..zZZz.. help mi lehz.. hehe

anyway peeps out dere.. not tt i dowan to reply to taggies.. but my taggy can't b used... n i can't tag at ur tagboards too.. smthing's wrong wif my tagboard... argh! so frustrated...zZZz

anyways, yest the agency called mi n said they haf a new job.. n they will contact mi again.. but well.. as usual, no news heard today.. i've decided to call STMB tml.. all thx to xiaowei.. who did mi a favour by giving mi the contact no... thx alot~

lastly, to all out dere:

thx u all out dere who realli did care and think about mi n bothered to read my blog, tag mi, sms mi etc... i was realli lost tt day, i guess.. it wasn't me... or shd i say, it was the real mi? haha.. my thots ran TOO wild.. to the extend tt i didn't noe wad i was doing, nor wad was i thinking.. wadeva it is.. i noe it'll b back again.. i jux dunno when... when pple rec my msg outta the blue.. u noe smthing's wrong yeah? haha.. those pple will noe who i'm tokin bout.. if ur're reading tis tt is... =)

i'm sick in the head .. . i guess

hmmm.. it's a saturday..

i was home alone fer almost the whole day... sis came back only after mum gave a long distance call to her to nag at her...

oh well.. one more day doesn't make a diff... i've been along all these while... i guess.. even though sometimes ur're juz beside me.. i feel so distant... i guess everything has changed... was it you or was it me? i sense tt we dun feel so much fer each other anymore.. you dun seem to care, and neither do i.. wad's wrong? i guess you're starting to lead your life.. and me? my life is onli filled with cold, unfeeling air... i feel so numb nw.. nth seems to interest me.. n i'm so sick.. i'm sick in the head... i need a psychologist.. i think i realli need one...

i noe tt crying doesn't help.. it doesn't solve the problem in me.. but i can't find no one to tok to.. not even my boyfren ( or maybe soon to be ex-boyfren) i missed my mum so much juz nw.. i dunno why... suddenly... i felt tt perhaps my mum would be able to share my probs... called over to thailand to look fer her.. but she din ans my call ( as usual.. i think she's partially deaf) haha...

i'm forever like tt.. the emotions juz come and go... hw i wish.. it would juz leave me forever...

leave mi... would you?

i'm sorry angel

hi girl..

real sorrie.. my blog got deleted tt time n i lost all my contacts... didn't purposely got ya off my list.. -__-

heesh.. anyways... ur're also having ur hols rite? gonna start working or wad? i've been rotting fer 1 mth le.. tt feeling sucks.. great time!!!! anyways.. keep in contact ya? *miss ya*

help needed!

hey peeps..

smthing's wrong wif my taggy.. can't seem to tag.. the "cookies deactivated" thingy keep appearing.. anyone noes hw to solve the prob? -__-

haiz.. i like rotted fer 1 mth liow.. whole of 1 mth.. my routine is slp, eat, watch tv, slp, eat slp eat.. help mi!!!! it's not tt i dowan to work.. but i can't find any jobs.. tried every means.. thru online job agencies.. agencies recommended by my mum's fren.. newspapers... argh! kill mi man.. this kinda life sucks.. GREAT TIME!

hw i wish june would come asap.. i wanna fly to redang.. NW! argh.. time realli pass by so slowly nwadays.. a minute seems forever... i'm at a total lost as to wad to do nw.. whr my future lies? wad shd i do? i think i'm definitely not accepted by either NTU and SMU, which i long ago knew.. coz actualy i was juz like applying fer a "hope".. i juz pray hard SIM agrees to take mi in.. take pity on mi pls... -___-

was thinking yest while i was on bed.. i think i wanna open my own boutique... i wanna b a "boss" haha... i'll work to earn and save enuff money.. den i'll work hard on my goal.. yes.. i hope i'll succeed... i think i will nv succeed working in an office.. doin the same things over and over again... bcoz i seriously juz can't take office work.. oh well.. tt's juz a reality tt we all hav to face... hw sad yeah?

restless .. . (-__-)

oh man..i'm realli so sick of rotting at home.. juz emailed an agency.. hope they'll reply mi asap.. i'm dying soon.. of boredom...zZZz..

anyways, did i mention tt i'll b goin to laguna redang tis coming june.. boy am i excited.. i've been waiting and waiting fer tis day since the laz time i went which was like years back den... haha.. i'm so glad we're finally goin again.. n tis time round, dear might b coming along... makes it double the fun... *hugz my dear pig* hmmm... he finally has the chance to get to drive the van.. i'm happy fer him... saves time, saves money.. hope everything would turn out well fer him... *god bless my dearest*

hmm.. i think i gained wt.. didn't dare to weigh myself.. i'm afraid of facing reality.. like always.. no matter abt wad.. haha.. but well... i've been wanting to excercise.. any partners? haha..